- WRITE MORE! (Whether that be recaps, F&F/fic, fiction...just write more, okay?!)
(So far, I suck at this)
- Get a big girl job (this girl does not want to pay for her own insurance come November)DONE!
- Be more assertive/extroverted/not give a damn what people think (working on this...)
- 'Come out' to the fam (if the moment is 'right', etc.)
- Actually complete this scrapbook!!
= well written, outstanding production, gold, etc.
= lgbtq+ related
= shows/films I cover/write about on various sites!
( 2016: The Year of the Kat )
-000. Format. Title. Release Date. Cast. Date Watched. (Comments).
(I never expected myself to adore this show as much as I do. I blame Kat/the cast. Everything that I love about the show, the show has. And everything I hate...diminished/only slightly present (sorry Jace/Clary fans). Looking forward to how this show unfolds. Will easily be my favorite show overall this year.)
2. Sick of Losing Soulmates----- Dodie Clark
3. Everybody Loves Me------ OneRepublic (Ben)
4. Crybaby----- Melanie Martinez (Rose)
5. Stop Desire----- Tegan & Sara
6. Strange Love----- Halsey
7. Carousel----- Melanie Martinez
8. I'll Be Good----- Jaymes Young (Ben)
9. Breathe Me----- Sia (Rose)
10. Bottom of My Heart----- Bleu & Alexz Johnson
11. Timebomb---- Tove Lo
12. Over Overthinking You---- Christina Grimmie
13. King----- Lauren Aquilina (Ben)
14. Monster----- The Girl and the Dreamcatcher
15. Rock Bottom----- Hailee Steinfeld & DNCE
16. Desire----- Years & Years
17. IDFC---- Blackbear
18. Just a Dream---- Christina Grimmie & Sam Tsui
Kelly's 2015 Scrapbook!( sorry for never finishing you )
Favorite Quote: Lara to Blue: "I don't identify as a lesbian. I'm just me. I'm with her now. Ask me again the next time I fall in love."
(LONG RANT TIME!: Ok, so my roommate is an ASL interpreter & we've both watched this show together for about 3 seasons now. Wow, we've lived together a LONG TIME! Anyway, she always calls out the show when they miss up something in the Deaf Culture, like misinterpreted signing or that a interpreter should be present, etc. And over the course of living with her I've grown to learn more about the deaf community (as she has about the LGBTQ+ community from me). Normally the mistakes this show makes are totally fine with her...until the Season 4 premiere occurred. Long story (hopefully) short: The main character, Daphne, (who is deaf) signed up for an advanced chemistry class and the professor demanded that she had to find herself her own interpreter that knew the Chemistry vocab.
Yeah, in the real world...this is illegal. The school should supply her an interpreter regardless! Also I'm fairly sure that they don't need to know all that extensive vocab (it would help...but it's not necessary). When they occurred on the show even I was livid, knowing that my roommate interprets for a living and as of right now that's mostly college classes. Rant over)
(UPDATE: Their current story arc with Bay is done extremely well and I applaud the writers, actors, etc. They're taking a sexual assault storyline and portraying it in a way that I personally have never seen on television. Bravo!)
-004. TV Show. Glee. (Season 6. FINAL Season. Thank GOD). 1/9/15'. Watching as it airs. Lea Michele, Chris Colfer, Darren Criss, Naya Rivera, etc.
(The only thing I have to say is thank goodness Heather, Naya, and Dianna are back because otherwise, I would not be nearly as invested. Of course I'd still watch it, but I need my ot3! Also Britttana. DON'T FUCK THIS UP RIB!)
-005. TV Show. Girl Meets World. (In Mid Season 1) 1/9/15'. Watching as it airs. Ben Savage. Danielle Fishel. Rowan Blanchard. Sabrina Carpenter.
(Always been a HUGE fan of the original show, Boy Meets World, that my roommate & I had to tune into the spinoff. There's something about it that just tugs at my heartstrings and makes me all giddy. Maybe it's Sabrina's outstanding portrayal of Maya Hart, a girl with half a Mom and a Dad that left her. Maybe it's the constant BMW mentions or the power couple, Cory & Topanga being back in my life. Also for a Disney show, the writers push their limits constantly. The writing is smart and cohesive and it's not dumbed down for the younger generation. I can't wait to see what they do with episodes to come)
-006. TV Show. The Originals. (In Mid Season 2) 1/19/15. Watching as it airs. Joseph Morgan. Daniel Gillies. Phoebe Tonkin. Leah Pipes. Charles Michael Davis. Danielle Campbell (slightly. There are 2 LGBTQ+ recurring characters with their own storylines, but of course the show overall isn't LGBTQ+ based)
(As of right now, I prefer this show over it's predecessor, The Vampire Diaries. Perhaps it's because I adore Phoebe Tonkin and Claire Holt so much (If only Claire would guest star more often!! D:). Maybe it's the fact that the show is still new, so the characters are fresh and they can develop (aside from the Original gang, which we've known for quite a while on TVD). I think the writing/mythology comes across much better here, but as mentioned, this show is only on its 2nd season...while TVD is on its 6th. Also, Josh is the cutest thing ever and it's great that we have an LGBTQ+ recurring character on this show! Don't even get me started on Josh & Aiden. (Yes, I am aware that TVD has Luke, but they haven't really given him much to work with :/)
-007. TV Show. The Fosters. (In Mid Season 2) 1/19/15'. Watching as it airs. Sherri Saum. Teri Polo. Maia Mitchell. Jake T. Austin. Cierra Ramirez. David Lambert.
(This show is outstanding with LGBTQ+ representation. Not only that but every "issue" they tackle is done like no other teen/young adult show I've seen. The writers have certainly done their homework! :))
-008. TV Show. The Vampire Diaries. (In Mid Season 6). 1/22/15'. Watching as it airs. Nina Dobrev. Ian Somerhalder. Paul Wesley. Candice Accola, etc. (even more slight then its spinoff. I don't even think it deserves this rainbow tbh. The LGBTQ+ character hardly appears on this show at this point. :/...UPDATE: lol, they killed the gay character off. Excuse me while I continue to love the spinoff for actually incorporating the gay recurring character into the storyline and giving him a love interest. kbye)
(First off, there was a point during my life where I was OBSESSED with this show (prob from s1-3. Then the show got semi-ridiculous. Now I'm just here for the cast members (ahem, like Glee, only not NEARLY as much. This show still has decent writing) and the recent Steroline storyline...OTP FINALLY HAPPENING?! PLEASE! I rarely give up on shows, so I'm in it for the long haul for this. At this point, I prefer the spinoff more)
-009. TV Show. Reign. (In Mid Season 2). 1/22/15. Watching as it airs. Adelaide Kane. Toby Regbo. Torrance Coombs. Caitlin Stasey. Megan Follows. Anna Popplewell, etc.
(Oh how I love this show. While I can't judge it on its historical accuracy, I adore the acting, the location/sets, the costumes...EVERYTHING! Sure, sometimes the show can get overdone/dramatic...but i don't know- I can't really describe my feels on this show. Anyone have any opinions on why I might love this show so much? Besides Caitlin, Adelaide's & Anna's perfection (really all the ladies.).
My Recaps/Articles for this show can be found here! READ/COMMENT! It helps me/our site SO much!
-010. TV Show. Black Sails. (Season 2). 1/24/15. Watching as it airs (via the internet haha). Hannah New. Jessica Parker Kennedy. Toby Stephens. Luke Arnold. Zach McGowan, etc.
(I never thought I would watch something like this. I'm not a huge pirate fan and honestly, I tend to stick with my little YA-related shows (I hate change okay! haha). But you put hot lesbians/lady lovers in something and chances are...I'll watch it ;) That's exactly what Black Sails did and my goodness...now I'm IN LOVE WITH THIS SHOW! It's smart, has excellent writing, is a prequel to Treasure Island (although I've never read that :/ yeah, i know!) and every female character is a BADASS. Eleanor Guthrie, is the boss of everyone on Nassau Island! Anne Bonny is a killer lady pirate that isn't afraid to kill anyone. I could go on and on. But, you can read my recaps for that)
My recaps/articles for this show can be found here! READ/COMMENT! It helps so much <3
-011. TV Show Episode. Stalker. 1/28/15'. Watched it cause P Tonks was in it. Phoebe Tonkin(kinda)
(As mentioned above, I only saw this episode for the Tonks and if you're a fan of her's...it's definitely worth the watch. You don't have to have seen the show (it's the 14th episode), I didn't and was totally fine understanding what was going on (it's similar to Law & Order in that sense). Phoebe Tonkin acts the shit out of it! Like seriously, after seeing this...I don't know why the Originals isn't giving her stuff like this. She has her natural Aussie accent in this, so maybe that's why (no offense, but even after being on American shows for so long, she still does a terrible job at an American accent. Claire Holt's is 10x better
& sexier). It also feels like an AU episode of H2O. Like her character's bedroom is similar to Cleo's, she's a lifeguard...or am I just over-thinking it? (Probably).
-012. TV Show. Pretty Little Liars. 2/4/15'. Super behind (watching the beginning of Season 5.) Troian Bellisario. Ashley Benson. Lucy Hale. Shay Mitchell, etc.
(This show is perfection. I love SO many things about it! Sure there are a few things that could improve or omit (Aria's actions & Ezria), but everything else is SO spot on that I've just learned to overlook them. But tbh, not sure how I feel about Alison being back. I adore Sasha's acting; I guess I'm just thinking about the books then)
-013. TV Show. Orphan Black. 2/4/15'. Finished the last 3 eps of Season 2. Tatiana Maslany x 100. Jordan Gavaris. Evelyne Brochu.
(I have similar feels about this show like PLL tbh. But unlike with PLL, I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SHOW! It's smart, features outstanding characters (multiple queer characters!!) and the storylines are fab. Tatiana is a genius that can portray literally any sort of person imaginable. I HIGHLY recommend this show! You'll get addicted fast.)
-014. TV Show.
-000. Title. Release Date. Cast. Date Watched. (Comments)
-001.The Judge. 10/10/'14. Robert Downey Jr. Robert Duvall. Vincent Farmiga. Leighton Meester. 1/9/15'. (My roommates just had this on one night and I was all, "Okay, I guess I'll watch a bit of it. First, LEIGHTON MEESTER IS IN THIS! So immediately the film scores points for that. Second, I was really surprised how much I actually enjoyed this film. It's compelling and without spoiling anything, the viewer ends up sympathizing with a semi-unreliable narrator.
-002. All Cheerleaders Die. 9/15/13'. Caitlin Stasey. Sianoa Smit-McPhee. Brooke Butler.Amanda Grace Cooper, etc. 1/15/15'.
(WARNING: Since this movie is a horror film (technically, it really isn't that bad. This coming from a scardy cat of horror/scary movies), that it's a little on the gory/bloody side. Those that are squeamish, you've been warned. SO glad I got to watch this film! Caitlin Stasey acts the shit out of it and it features 3 queer characters guys!)
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Sooo...I wrote this; it's not exactly a sex scene (which is what he originally wanted), but it definitely takes their relationship to a whole new level.
Fun Fact: my professor cried/got choked up while reading this! :)
Note: ughhh it won't let me cut...sooo, deal with it haha
I was currently sitting in Arianna’s room, Bear lying down next to me on Arianna’s bed, as his usual.
Even though it was mid-October, here in Florida, the weather outside was a scorcher, what with it being ninety degree weather and all.
I felt Bear breathing in and out rather heavily. Droplets of drool slid off of his tongue and soaked into Arianna’s comforter.
“Oh, she’s gonna be mad,” I muttered under my breath.
“Bear stop! You’re getting drool on the bed!” I swatted his nose and he cowered, lowering his head deeper into the blanket, thinking he was in trouble or something.
“What’d he do?” Arianna’s voice called out as she opened her bedroom door, walking into her room after had taking a shower.
Arianna’s mom was away on business for the weekend and she thought it would be best if someone kept her daughter company within those few days.
Arianna did not waste a second. She instantly called me and after much convincing from my Mom, she allowed for me to spend these next two nights at Arianna’s house. Well I needed to bring Bear along and check in with her every so often. Of course knowing my Mom there would be rules. It’s not like I’m going out of the country or anything.
I lightly stroked Bear’s head, while also lifting my head in the direction of Arianna’s door. “It appears that he got doggie slobber on your bed a little bit.” I felt around for the wet droplets that were currently soaking into the material of Arianna’s soft comforter.
Arianna walked over to her bed, her footsteps sounding delicate, like the way snow falls on the cold ground. She plopped down on her bed, one leg at a time, based on the way the bed jostled twice.
She scooted up next to me to investigate her comforter, the piece of her clothing rubbing up against my thigh. Wait, I recognize that familiar fabric. I brought my hand out and lightly brushed my fingers against the fabric, feeling the rough fibers of the material. “Are you wearing a towel?” I said to her.
“Yep, he definitely drooled.” Arianna said in unison.
Arianna was rubbing her comforter, but stopped after she realized I also said something.
All I could do to avoid this awkward conversation was grab a hold of Bear’s thick, soft fur. He immediately rolled over in hopes I would rub his stomach.
But I knew I had to ask her again.
After all she wasn’t saying anything. She was probably waiting for me to repeat myself.
“Are you wearing…a towel?” Why was I so intrigued by this? Was it because barely a week ago, I thought about kissing her during a drunken game of spin the bottle?
A brief pause occurred between us. Well, okay you could hear Bear panting softly next to me, and the fan that was briskly spinning high above us. He moved every which way, probably uncomfortable because of the heat.
“Uh, yeah. I did just come from the shower, ya doofus.”
Her hand lightly touched my arm and I felt her playfully push me in a joking manner.
All I could do was smile out of sheer awkwardness. Of course she would be wearing a towel for that reason. I thought.
I had to say something to her to make her think I hadn’t completely lost my mind. But of course all I could muster was, “Oh, right.”
What is wrong with you, Laurel? This is Arianna you’re talking to, not a stranger.
Because I wasn’t talking, Arianna got up off the bed, her feet landing softly on her soft as fur carpet.
Dresser drawers were being pried open, the squeaking sound resonating throughout the room. I could only imagine the trendy pajamas Arianna has; like a bright purple and blue polka-dotted tank with matching shorts or pink silk pajamas. Oh how soft the material would be on my skin. Wait, why am I thinking this?
I paused trying to come to my senses, taking a long breath in the process.
Why is Arianna being cool about this? Why isn’t she freaking out?
“You okay, Laurels. You seem kinda out of it.” Arianna asked me.
I didn’t say anything, couldn’t say anything. Why? Because Arianna is standing in front of me, completely exposed.
People always think they can get away with things in front of blind people. Like we won’t notice if you scratch your butt in public or that you roll your eyes the minute you see us. Sure, sometimes we aren’t able to pick up every little thing you do in front of us; but you’d be surprised at what we are able to detect.
I thought Arianna wasn’t that person, but I guess I was wrong.
“Earth to Laurel!”
I jolt back into reality.
Arianna walks closer to me, her footsteps hesitant and slow. “What’s up?” The second she places her hands on each of my shoulders I freeze; from the fact that she’s rubbing her hands up and down my shoulders and arms.
She thinks this is comforting, but to me it’s more like suffocating.
I reach out and grab a hold of Arianna’s hands and remove them from my body. A chill runs down my back.
Then suddenly, I transport back into my mind, imagining the two of us to be walking down a cobblestone road, holding hands as the sun pours down on us and the wind blows our hair every which way. And we’re happy, because we have each other.
“Stop!” I yell.
Bear lifts his head up from the bed, letting out a low whine from the sudden change in tone.
I’m not sure who I was yelling at, Arianna: for comforting me, or myself: for imagining that such a thing between Arianna and I was possible.
“What’s wrong?” She’s doing it again. This time she’s pushing long strands of my hair behind my ears.
“Just stop!” I push her hands off of me, this time with much force.
“STOP TOUCHING ME!”
It’s then I knew I had to get out of there. I had to leave her room. It’s like the walls were slowly closing in on me. The thought of Arianna and I being alone in her bedroom made me uncomfortable, claustrophobic even.
But where could I go to escape from everything. My fears, my desires and most importantly: her.
Having been in Arianna’s house and bedroom several times within the past month, I know exactly where to go that is assessable to me right now.
The bathroom, which is located straight ahead of me and a little to the right.
Knowing exactly where it is and also knowing that Arianna has nothing lying around that could cause me trip or hinder my ‘dramatic exit’, I leap off the bed and quickly walk to where I think Arianna’s bathroom is.
Meanwhile, Bear is barking because I’ve gotten up suddenly without his knowing, and by now Arianna has gotten up and made her way towards me, saying various phrases like, “What’s wrong?” or “Laurel, where are you going?”
I know that Arianna has the advantage of grabbing a strong hold of me, bringing me back onto the bed and having a heart to heart about whatever the hell is going on with me.
But she doesn’t. I guess she knows that I want to be left alone.
Once I’m able to locate the doorknob, I don’t hesitate to open the door, shut it and lock myself inside.
I slide my body down to the cold marble tile of the bathroom, the intricate woodwork in the door rubbing against my back like sandpaper.
It’s like I’m in one of those romantic movies, when the protagonist has just been wronged and comes home a crying mess.
But the thing is, I’m not home; I’m in my friends Jack and Jill style bathroom, now muffling back tears. And no one has wronged me or caused me any harm, I’ve done that all myself.
I hear Arianna behind the door saying, “Laurel, please come out. What’s wrong? We can talk about whatever’s bothering you.”
I continue to blubber like an idiot on the other end. I notice I smell the faint hint of vanilla in Arianna’s bathroom.
The smell both intoxicates me and makes me want to throw up at the same time.
Bear’s barking loudly behind the door. He’s pawing at the door while Arianna keeps twisting the knob every which way.
I hope her door isn’t one of those easy doors that unlock with just a jab of a bobby pin.
“There’s nothing to talk about.” I finally say. At least I try to say as salty tears slowly make their way from my tear ducts to the bottoms of my cheeks.
Arianna drops to the ground as well, causing me to jump on the other side of the bathroom door.
“Well, there clearly is since you’ve locked yourself in my bathroom.” Arianna says rather calmly I might add. “You’re lucky there are multiple bathrooms in this house because I really have to pee.”
And leave it to Arianna to turn a serious moment into humorous.
I try to stifle back my laugh. I’m supposed to be sad, I think to myself.
I take a deep breath and try my best to explain what’s wrong. It would be great if I could actually explain things from time to time. I always end up just being too afraid of what people think and just mutter a phrase of something until someone changes the subject.
“Remember a couple weeks ago, when everyone was at my house.”
“Yeah, of course.” Arianna responds.
I hear Bear panting in front of the door. Sounds like Arianna is keeping him company, while I’m busy having a meltdown.
“Well, remember spin the bottle? And how the bottle I spun landed on you and…”
“We were supposed to kiss.” Arianna said for me. She knew exactly where this was going. “Then you were blubbering on and on about physical attraction and how you can’t like girls.”
More tears roll down my cheeks at just the memories of that time.
“Aw honey, I thought that was just the alcohol talking. Sometimes people get a little gay when they drink.”
I continue to just have Arianna talk for me. Have her piece the puzzles together so I hopefully don’t have to say anything else and we can go back to having fun.
“So, what are you trying to say, Laurel?” she asked me. “That you like me?”
“No.” Yeah, that was convincing. Not.
“Laurel.” Arianna said, it was like she was scolding Bear or something. She knew exactly what I was going to say.
“It’s just that when I’m with you, I’m the most happiest I’ve ever been, and probably that I’ll ever be. You treat me normal, like I don’t have this challenging disability to overcome everyday.”
Silence on the other end.
“You make me feel normal. It’s like I can do anything when I’m with you.”
“Laurel,” Arianna said.
Did she not feel the same way? Was she angry? Weirded out? Did she want me to leave?
But no she wasn’t at all.
“Unlock the door.”
And so I did, not because she told me to, but because of curiosity.
What came next was the most unexpected thing that has ever happened to me.
Wrapping her arms around my shoulders, she pulls me in closer.
She kisses me lightly.
It was sweet, simple, and most of all it felt right.
And since the lovely Fiona Coyne is no longer on Degrassi (D: I'll be okay, I promise!! *sobs*), I figured it was the perfect opportunity to post this!
It's actually really funny, my professor read this (& myself) aloud last year in my Advanced Creative Non-Fiction and when the twist happened my ENTIRE class just gasped really loud and were COMPLETELY invested in this story, it was AMAZING!
After class (which kinda upset me) one of the girls in my class said, "Your story was SO good! I wish it was real!"
I was like to myself, "Uh, okay, you wish one of my greatest fears actually happened? Hmmm...okay."
And even my professor was all, "Who knows? Maybe that'll happen someday." (or something along the lines).
(I had SO many issues with that professor last year!)
(I HAVE SO MANY DREAMS ABOUT ANNIE CLARK! IT'S INSANE! TMI?)
Oh and I have a few other non-fiction pieces that I like that you could read too (if you want??)
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And also: do you think this is TOO dramatic for our little Laurels to face?
Oh and you get mindtwin points if you can guess what inspired me while writing this! (I'll give you a hint; here's the quote from the show which i think you might know: "How could I forget?")
I wasn’t too keen on going to the party in the first place, but I figured since my brother Will and Arianna were going, I might as well tag along.
Oh & I know the names are still the same as F&F, I'm keeping them that way just until I'm done with my direct study/writing class for the summer (since both of my professors are used to those names). I'll most likely end up changing them.
Also, writing in Laurel's point of view has made me REALLY adore her character and we DEFINITELY need to include her more in F&F2! She's SUCH an interesting character & so strong/independent even with her lack of sight! Well at least in my novel she is)( Read more... )
I'm actually really proud of this...not only is this really personal (a lot of the dialogue that Julia & Quinn share actually happened between my roommate & I)...but I don't know...I just think I nailed the style & I'm shocked that I even wrote this & got all of this out of my system (writing is so therapeutic sometimes).
There were a ton of things I was going to add to this such as Julia calling herself a "bi-esbian", more drunken craziness, and a bit more Julia/Arianna-ness...but whatever. I've rewritten this story SO many times...I don't even care anymore.
Oh & sorry it's all in one paragraph...the story I was parodying did that originally.
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But the thought of writing a sex scene (let alone a lesbian sex scene...i didn't want to screw it up!) terrified me...so I had my roommate, Kara,
write a lot of it. So she wrote quite a bit...then I finished it.
Ugh...I think it's terrible (minus Kara's part) but whatever.
She wrote from: "Julia leaned back in her bed and felt her head sink in her pillow." to "Julia gently kissed Arianna neck in response." and then I changed a few words here & there to make it sound like I wrote it..haha.
Enjoy! (tell me how bad it is!)
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I kinda like this...but then I kinda don't. There was just SO much that I wanted to have happen in it, that I kinda rushed it & I don't think I portrayed all the emotion I wanted to. And I wrote this in first person (Arianna's POV), since while I was writing this in my Fiction Writing tutoring class, my tutor felt (& I agreed) that I would convey a lot more emotion in first person...so yep, I tried my best to capture Arianna's voice.
Let me know what you think.
I peered at my reflection in the floor length mirror in my room. I was currently inspecting my outfit for tonight’s festivities. Tonight was the big Homecoming Dance and for once in my life, I finally had a date this year. I was going with the beautiful, Lily Collins.( Read more... )
this is really old (from about a year ago)...but I figured since I'm on my computer at home (& it seems to be corporating nicely), I'd post some old stuff on my computer...just so I had SOMETHING else on here!
I believe you've read this before...but...here ya go! :)
( (I ship Lily with Everyone!) )
Arianna Cromwell/Lily Collins
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